rollercoaster ride

so this last week has been madness. i have been running in and out of minneapolis, trying to pack, clean and work all the while dealing with a break up and continuous rumors about me and my so-called-sex-life. last week jonny and i had a fight, a huge one. i got too drunk (go figure) and did some completely irrational things. he was not having it and needed a "break".... i am not one for being on a break. im a very, you're with me or you're not kinda girl. when he first laid it on me, i took it as some sort of threat. as if he didnt really wanna break up with me, but he wasn't ready to let go. knowing that made me feel like we should just end things so he can see how his life would be without me. turns out, i also don't like life without him, and asked for his forgiveness sunday morning. there is just something about jonny i can't let go of. no matter how many fights we get into i keep wanting to be with him. i just am so in love with him. he really makes me happier than anyone ever has. i am hoping my move home will make our relationship stronger. i guess we will see what happens. i am happy to know that i am finally optimistic about my moving home... we will see what happens!